And an old light once thought lost is re-lit...

Maybe its a sign. But I finally feel like I'm learning...

Life is a series of births and deaths
it cycles like the seasons
only the winters are much longer
And seem to grow colder with turn of the year
Until you seem too haggard to push out new leaves again
unclenching your roots from the soil
you lay back unto the earth with an emancipated sigh

I am ready for another cycle though. Leezles are restless wanderers... that follow the migration of sunflowers. It's a little known fact that sunflowers like to holiday in exotic ports of call disguised as cute guys. hahaha But as I finish this chapter of my life, I can't help but feel disappointed with its conclusion. After all... good to begin well... better to end well. But I never do anything in quite the right order. lol Perhaps its not a bad ending... just a quiet one. Yet the world doesn't remember quiet harmonies... its the melody that perpetuates in their thoughts and voices. I just need another spring... a new beginning.. an excuse to be ridiculous. lol Although, I never needed an excuse before... hahaha. Perhaps I'll feel better if I put things on my head... and forget to remove them before I go take my final exams. *giggles*

At least buying things on German eBay made me feel better for a while. hehehe Although, it's no fun bidding in Euros because you know with each bid you make, the dollar is getting less and less valuable. lol After a while you have to concede to people who have a stronger currency. *uber pouts* DAMN YOOOOU, EXCHANGE RATE!!!! Also, I can't really understand all the German... so who knows what I just bought. *giggles* Which eBay country shall I shop next? DON'T JUDGE ME! This is the closest I'll ever get to being a tourist in another part of the world!!! :P

I reeeeeally want to write a song... but I haven't studied all day... so my creativity will just have to procrastinate as is tradition! That was random! Back to my other stream of random thought...

I just want to know how I became so antisocial... Leezles are never afraid! Why should I be afraid now?!?! Now, where did I leave my self-confidence?!?! *searches in the couch cushions* Oooo, a quarter! Now I can go back to German ebay and bid again! lmao It's strange, however... even though the world seems so terrible at times, I never struggle with loving every inch of it... or centimeter hehehe. The greatest difficulty I face in life is finding the theories to the logical proof that would make it possible for me to love myself. I AM Fermat's Last Theorem! lol Oh goodness! Does this mean Andrew Wiles must teach me to loooooooove? *wink wink... gigglies* Also, I get a gold star in nerdiness for this dated mathematical reference! Thank you, Math Club!

Anyway, its really late and I have to STUDY! My first final exam is tomorrow... and my last final exam (literally the last final... THE ULTIMATE FINAL... THE APOCALYPTI-FINAL!!! THE FINAL TO END ALL FINAL EXAMS AND GET ME AN IMPORTANT SHINY PIECE OF PAPER!) is on Thursday night... three days from this present moment.

I really hope I can make a comeback in the existing world. Remember me? I'm that girl that licked you, then hugged you, then pretended to be a squirrel and stole all your shiny things... doesn't sound familiar? How about when I threatened to take your organs and you subdued me with candy? Or when I drew a picture of you while you slept.... or drew a picture ON you while you slept... You have to remember me!!!?!?!

And lastly, this my formal apology for killing my facebook children with neglect... sadly, if I knew you weren't made only of pixels, I would have saved you. Although, wouldn't it be terrible if facebook actually did make a real child for every facebook child and then..... O.O OH GOD, I'M GOING TO HELL!

Lurve you all... puppy ciao! - The Leezle